Lady Bamboo
Where did I go?

Away.

Feel better in myself a little as the 6 weeks holidays have finally arrived but I need to get myself back on track before I start again in September.

I’m gonna take this time to do the things I’ve missed and enjoyed over the school year. Hopefully I will relax and feel even better than I already do!

Peace Out

Lady Bamboo
xoxoxoxoxoxo

Why…

Does my life not have the same love story I fall in love with over and over again?

Have I got my happy ending? Am I happy with my happy ending?

Too many of these thoughts running through my mind right now.

Hating

I hate my life. I don’t know why. I just hate it right now. Hate it to the point where I think about doing things.

I’m such a selfish cow.

Can’t decide…

…if I’ve fucked my life up or not? Whether I’m in love or just love? Want to change or not? Whether I’m a different person to the person I was 7 years ago?

When and why did things get so complicated?

The Dark

I’ve been in dark since my grandad died. I know because I remember how the sun stings my eyes and the night scares me. It’s not been nice. As I’ve grown older I’ve come to realise that I am a loner in many respects. I have a partner, a great family and a few friends but in reality I have no one who I feel comfortable enough with to talk about how I feel.

I had a horrendous dream last night. In all respects it was a nightmare for me. I awoke crying and shaking and scared. I did not want to tell my partner so I let him sleep whilst I urged the dream and the feelings with it away.

It’s funny because I have no idea how to change me. How to will me to be vocal with my feelings to those I love the most. I’m still a very scared little girl and I hide this by having a busy career. I hide it well. A little too well.

No one asks how I feel. No one asks what I’m up to. No one asks if I want to join them. No one really cares. Most of the I’m okay with this. I’m not okay with it right now but I’ll plough on until I remember that I am that lonely little girl who tries to fit in, but never really will.

Lady Bamboo
xoxoxoxoxox

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Jo’s tweet today (X)

Hello to all my new followers!! Feel free to message me or ask me anything!

Hello to all my new followers!! Feel free to message me or ask me anything!

What is this picture really 😂

What is this picture really 😂

Scariest character ever in my opinion!

Scariest character ever in my opinion!

That expression 😍

That expression 😍